Monday, August 30, 2010

Where Did Time Go??

Wow, could somebody tell me where the time has went? How has he gone from this:

To this????

He has grown so much. :) I am so proud of him, yet so scared to see the time slipping by. Right now he thinks that there is no woman better than one cooks better, makes him laugh more, or gives better hugs than me right now. But that is right now....too soon I will meet my match and have to try to like the one who will be taking my heart from me. Yes, I have blogged before....Jon is my heart and Sasha is my soul. Jon is my heart because I feel everything he does...when something happens to him I just want to help him so bad. If someone says or does something against kills me. BUT....He is ok and I have never been jailed, which means...I have kept my cool. :) This is good.....he knows I have his back and I am so happy he realizes that. :)

I know that I will love my addition to our family someday (his wife) and what she will bring to the already "crazy" table that we have going. I just hope that Jon can find FOREVER HAPPINESS and not follow the popular trend of divorce. He knows what his mom and dad have gone through and are still together. He knows that anything that is worth worth fighting for. I am proud of this. :)

Other hopes? Yes, I have loads of them for both my kids. I hope Jon goes to college and plays football like he wants. I hope he will always have good teachers and coaches that challenge him, yet see when he is struggling and helps him see what he needs to do. He has had this in elementary school, but with middle and high school coming up...I know the teachers are not as personal. And...that scares me.

I remember the first time he broke my heart...not knowing it of course, or he would have never found his independence. I sure was fine not letting him be independent. It was in the middle of his second grade year. I used to always walk him into the school. From the first day of kindergarten until that fateful day. I was driving to the school and pulled into the parking lot and he says, "Mom, can you just stay here? I can do this by myself." I smiled and said, "Are you sure?" He said, "Yep!"   I still got my kiss and hug and I still do.

He started 6th grade last week and is so excited for school. He loves the things they do and all of his friends. Where is the time going? I used to dance and sing this small little man to sleep at night. Now, he doesn't even want to be tucked in. Believe me, I have asked. :) 

BUT....he made sure I got a goodnight hug and kiss tonight. LORD, please don't let him ever be too big to hug his mother. :)

Thanks for looking. :) 


  1. you speak my language aNd speak my 'heart & soul' too, Cade aNd Mackenzie loved what you wrote. A beautiful mom you aRe